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I think I've learned to like the feeling of rejection.. I've had to deal with it all too much. And I think thats the only reason I still go into wild rivers. Every time.. it gives me my daily fix of severe rejection. Yay emotional masochism.
Went in to wild rivers today. All subtlexcore, not in uniform.. plan is just to come in every day and swim some beach runs and then maybe talk to someone saturday morning. Run into a friend whose name I really ought to know, (I am SOO terrible with names, as you may know) waiting around by The Clock in the center of the park... he's also in mufti*, he's waiting for Kevin (Kevin = "The Boss"), who said he'd meet him at The Clock at high noon. This guy is the last person to be promoted to supervisor that I know of, so I ask him if he was the one Nikki was training yesterday. He says he was not. After waiting with him for about ten minutes he determined Kevin must have forgotten about him. That is, after all, the Wild Rivers Way.
Stacy the Evil Office Wench (SEOW?) was in the office again. I asked if there was a pay check for me but of course there was not, because she was working when my hours should have been recorded.. hope thats not too much of a hassle to fix and reflects as badly on her as it should. And then.. she wouldn't let me EXIT through the employee gate, because I wasn't working. I mean.. I can imagine not letting me IN through that, but to EXIT? What a freakin bitch!!!
In summary I am fully aware of how ridiculously hopeless my continued involvement there is and think it is for just that feeling of continual rejection that I continue to try. That and I'm really not very good at giving up on things.
*yes mufti, look it up focker
Addendum:
[16:10:46] xmomentsxwastedx: i woke up drunk again and i totally had a dream about you
[16:11:08] xmomentsxwastedx: you were running around in a polo shirt at wild rivers drinking 211
On that note, I of course woke up to my alarm clock going off... looked at it and TOTALLY read "snooze" as "booze." So my clock is flashing "booze" and I'm like WTF???
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