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   There are eight bunks in the forecastle ("focs'l"), and the captain and bosun sleep in the aft cabin. Being as I came in as 11th, that means I get to sleep in the main hold.
   The main hold isn't so bad, really, but it's not the forecastle. It's slightly colder, but the main thing is you have to completely pack up all your stuff every morning and squirrel it away in a corner because the room is also used as the dining room / living room for the rest of the crew as well as the store when we're doing dockside tours. So one really has zero personal space.
   That and the forecastle is where the crew lives. One of the first nights I spent the evening reading alone in the hold while I could hear laughter from the forecastle through the bulkhead. By now I've been welcomed to hang out back there, but at the time I'd never been invited in there before and didn't feel comfortable just inviting myself.
   Even so, living in the hold is not the same as living in the forecastle.

   I found out that a week later the engineer would be leaving the ship for winter. He was a nice guy and I liked him, but I secretly counted down the days till his departure, for I couldn't wait to finally join the rest of the crew in the foc'sl.
   In the mean time other new crewmembers came aboard, "Crazy Ivan" and "Bob the Fox", but they both had been on the crew for several months within the last year so everyone but me knew them already. At least there were more people in the hold with me.
   The day Daniel left, Crazy Ivan spent the day trying to barter me for the bunk ("a turks head and some seine twine?" "okay a turks head and TWO spools of seine twine??") but I wasn't having it, I'd coveted that bunk for far too long.
   Just after end of the day muster and stand down I, veritably salivating, asked the captain "so, am I moving into Daniel's bunk now?" ... and was informed that Jesse, another new-old guy who had arrived that day, would be given the bunk.

   That night Ivan escaped the hold and moved into an extra bunk in the aft cabin, leaving me and Bob to contemplate the hold ourselves. As no one else is leaving before we close for the winter on the 21st, I will not be getting to the forecastle.

   It's not that I'm terribly uncomfortable in the hold, or even so much the complete lack of personal space, it's feeling like part of the crew. It's hard to come in to a group that's been working closely together for months and feel like you're an equal part of it as a newcomer. This is especially true when you're the odd-man out and stuck in the hold.



It's been cold.

   In Cathlamet a woman brought us doughnuts. In the town of St Helens apparently the city council had intended to throw us a dinner but we only stopped there long enough to pump out our "black water." Here in Astoria the local Holiday Inn Express has let us use their hotel lobby to get warm and soak up their wifi, and apparently even said they'd missed us after no one came one evening. A tugboat that moored up next to us even brought us a whole bunch of good seafood they had ("but don't let our captain know we're giving it to you!")
   One couple offered to let some of the crew come over to their place to enjoy being in a warm house and use the showers and actually sleep in a real bed in their guest room.

   Myself, Sage, Daisy & Jesse decided to take them up on their offer last night. They were one of the nicest couples ever. Apparently the woman had been on the Lady Washington for two years in 1991-92 (when the boat was still young! It was only launched in 89), and had actually met her husband during this time, while he was a coast guard she had to interact with in one of the ports.
   We sat around all evening, drank hard cider and watched "Around Cape Horn," which is actual footage from a real sailship crossing around Cape Horn (on the Peking, which I visited at the New York maritime museum) with hilarious narration by the actual videographer, Irving Johnson, later a captain himself. Showers were had and clothes were washed and our gracious hosts told us tales of being on our ship twenty years before us. Additionally, the husband had spent two years on the coastguard tallship the USCGC Eagle and had many interesting tales from that adventure.
   Altogether it was a wonderful little island of warmth and home-ness in the great sea of pervasive coldness we've been in (it's been mostly below freezing and we don't have heat in our boat). Presently Daisy opted to return to the ship because she'd "have nightmares if [she's] not on the boat" (presumably about the mooring lines, which need to be adjusted several times throughout the night due to the 11 foot tides and the fixed pier), and Jesse went along with her.

   Sage let me have the bed because of my hold-dwelling status, and the couple set up an air-mattress for her in another corner of the house. But --perhaps like bees, accustomed to being crowded together, will huddle together if there's only two or three left where a hive once was-- we ended up sleeping in the same room.* Separated from the human hive of life aboardships we all either had to return to the ship or at least cling** together for company.
   But being in a nice warm house with great conversation and someone who doesn't want to put me alone in a ship's hold made me realize how cold and alone I'd been.***

* not like that you pervs ;)
** seriously, no actual clinging occurred.
*** and this is the last time I'll admit to having feelings and not being entirely black hearted. ;D

Date: 2009-12-12 05:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] furzicle.livejournal.com
I like the way you slipped the "one touch" in at the very end. You sneak. And as for having feelings...all I can say is "aww."

Date: 2009-12-12 05:30 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Yeah I was torn because I didn't want it to look like that passing line alone was my attempt to link it to the topic, but in fact the whole evening was sort of the "one touch" of warmth .. but then I couldn't resist working it into that line.

Date: 2009-12-12 05:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] theafaye.livejournal.com
It is really tough being a newcomer in an established group. Boo for you not getting the forecastle bunk!

Bet it's going to be really weird permanently sleeping in a normal bed once your seafaring adventures are over.

Date: 2009-12-12 05:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
It sucks that every time someone new arrives, rather than feeling like I'm finally more established than someone, I feel like I actually go BACKWARDS down the ladder and a whole new dimension of inside jokes and past experiences I'm not privy to are opened up, and new-old people keep showing up! Three of them so far! Two more tomorrow!

Date: 2009-12-12 05:57 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] theafaye.livejournal.com
I totally get that. I've been in similar situations in the past and it's really frustrating that for all your work, both in fitting in and in contributing to the group, you get nowhere.

How long are you planning on continuing sailing?

Date: 2009-12-12 06:08 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Until the 21st.

Date: 2009-12-12 06:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] isis-lives.livejournal.com
These are some familiar stompin' grounds, but experienced from the land or a pleasure boat. The mouth of the Columbia is awesome.

Date: 2009-12-12 07:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] painindesire.livejournal.com
you promised a poopy face photo! :(

Date: 2009-12-12 09:15 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] agirlnamedluna.livejournal.com
Aww, you really do have feelings <3


Perhaps you'll return to find you're more established than you thought, I hope :)

Date: 2009-12-13 03:02 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Ironically, I returned from making that entry to find that Sage and several others had once again gone to that nice couple's house and I had as they say missed the boat! ):

Date: 2009-12-16 10:12 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] agirlnamedluna.livejournal.com
Aw :( I hope at least with the new people they won't leave you out!

Date: 2009-12-17 03:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Yeah the new people don't leave me out of things, I'm an old hand as far as they're concerned (: ...but now Sage is being awk and avoiding me I think. And I had even tried pretty hard to give her space, being as we're all on a tiny boat, but apparently it got weird anyway /:

Date: 2009-12-17 10:40 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] agirlnamedluna.livejournal.com
Aw, it got weird? Did you have something going on? Perhaps she feels awkward because it's such a tiny boat. Hope it solves itself! *hugs*

Date: 2009-12-20 03:10 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Well you see.. I had rather gotten the sense that she might fancy me, based on a number of the subtle things one uses to detect such things (ie her sitting next to me more frequently that random chance would dictate, often otherwise finding herself near me, etc) and well, suggesting I could sleep in her bed, but I'm a lonely lad with no love life to speak of and I do find her fun and cute but precisely because it IS a very small boat I didn't make any moves upon her. But then this new guy Otis showed up and the were very flirty and that same day she started acting very weird to me and informed me she didn't want to share her bed "for a few days" ..

so my diagnosis of what happened is that despite my efforts to keep things entirely platonic, when another lad showed up who she was (more) interested in she still felt like she needed to push me away and guilt about suddenly switching on me like that led her to avoid me. d:

Its a small boat.

Date: 2009-12-22 11:25 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] agirlnamedluna.livejournal.com
Yeah, it does sound like a small boat ... Ah, hopefully you're enjoying your own home and bed now ;)

Date: 2009-12-23 12:56 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
But then the day after she left I needed to call her because she knows the bus schedules better than anyone. I was a bit reluctant to, as I expected more of the cold reception but she actually sounded really glad to hear from me. And then she called ME the day after my trip home to make sure it went okay. Girls! ::shakes head::

Date: 2009-12-23 01:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] agirlnamedluna.livejournal.com
Yeah, I think that's the right idea here. Does she live far from you?

Date: 2009-12-23 07:53 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
1,184 miles (:

What's the right idea? shaking my head? (:

Date: 2009-12-23 07:59 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] agirlnamedluna.livejournal.com
No, that sometimes girls are confusing haha.
If she had lived close by, I'd have said perhaps you can get to know her now you're not in such close quarters. So far away however, not sure if it's worth it!

Date: 2009-12-23 08:08 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Yeah I'm just going to aim to try to stay in contact. Being as she's not on facebook (such blasphemy!) that alone will require some effort.

Date: 2009-12-12 06:20 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] shadowwolf13
Reading about your time on the ship is very interesting! :)

Date: 2010-01-04 07:06 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Thanks (:

Date: 2009-12-13 03:00 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] heethen-crone.livejournal.com
I like your take on the topic and really enjoy hearing about your seafaring adventures.

Date: 2009-12-13 03:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Thanks (:

If at all possible I try to use the topic to write an entry basically as I would anyway, ie to write about my most recent adventures. Its been fun doing Idol as I've gone through my recent adventures, because I think its forced me to write more in-depth windows into the experience than I probably otherwise would have.

Date: 2009-12-13 04:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] joeymichaels.livejournal.com
I still think of you as heartless, if that's any consolation.

I've toured some ships before (though none exactly like yours) and can imagine who junk it is to bunk in the main. Sorry you won't get into the forecastle on this trip, but at least you can call the people who do bunk in the "focs" "foccers" and get away with it.

Date: 2009-12-13 04:58 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
hehe that's true. Often people come on for only about two weeks, and they're called "t'weekers"

Date: 2009-12-14 01:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] impoetry.livejournal.com
You have the most interesting stories. I couldn't even imagine sleeping on a boat.

Date: 2009-12-16 03:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Why not? It's more civilized than sleeping in a tent after all. (:

Date: 2009-12-14 03:19 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] elvenforever.livejournal.com
Wow, that's an incredibly emotive photo of the leaf on the rocks.

Sorry you didn't get the bunk in the forecastle. *hugs*

Date: 2009-12-16 03:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Oh I ended up sleeping in the forecastle, despite not having my own bunk there ;)

Date: 2009-12-16 04:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] elvenforever.livejournal.com
Oh good, I'm glad to hear that! :)

Date: 2009-12-14 04:24 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] cacophonesque.livejournal.com
HAHA you have feeeeeeeeelings.

I really love reading about all of the sailing stuff--the little specifics of language and terminology, and how you're living a grand adventure.

Date: 2009-12-16 04:05 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Thanks (: After awhile the terminology just comes naturally and one has to stop oneself from going into restaurants and asking where the shorehead is. (:

Date: 2009-12-14 10:40 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] baxaphobia.livejournal.com
Another adventure! However will you deal with staying put for more than a few days? hahaha

Date: 2009-12-16 03:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
I don't know!! :D

Date: 2009-12-14 11:00 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] blythe025.livejournal.com
Loved it. I've always wondered what it would be like to be a part of a crew. That feeling of being the outsider must be hard to contend with. I imagine it would kind of be like being left out of the family gatherings.

Date: 2009-12-16 03:41 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Its never been all THAT bad, its really just the principal of not being in the forecastle. Its also kind of a shame that the whole adventure will be over around the time I'm probably really feeling like I'm in with the crew. /:

Date: 2009-12-15 06:55 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] rejeneration.livejournal.com
Really nice! I love the picture. And, I totally went to the pervy please. Sorry! =)

Date: 2009-12-16 03:42 am (UTC)

Date: 2009-12-15 07:05 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] danialtravieso.livejournal.com
damn that was fun to read
good mix of feelings and fact

Date: 2009-12-16 03:50 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Thanks (:

Date: 2009-12-15 10:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] walkertxkitty.livejournal.com
I really, really enjoy your chronicles aboard ship. As I've told you before, I love seeing these under sail and can only imagine what it would be like to crew one. You are the luckiest of the lucky to actually be doing it.

Date: 2009-12-16 03:42 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
Look up your local tallship next time you have some vacation time and see if they take volunteers (:

Date: 2009-12-16 03:44 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] walkertxkitty.livejournal.com
I couldn't, hon. I can't walk and I'm so large I definitely wouldn't fit aboard a tall ship. I know we've got one that docks on the Jacksonville riverfront periodically and one year there were at least three. I'm content to simply watch them sail and talk to the crews.

Date: 2009-12-16 03:53 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] emo-snal.livejournal.com
aw well. take pictures for me (:

Date: 2009-12-16 03:54 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] walkertxkitty.livejournal.com
You know, I ought to post some. I have a few.

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